We went to the cemetery today to bring flowers and were surprised to find a camera crew in the row directly in front of Alex’s grave. The police were also there so we couldn’t really work out what was going on but saw that it was Channel 7 so we made a mental note to watch the news to find out what it was about. As we were leaving there was another couple visiting their child and they were being interviewed. I think if we had stayed a few more minutes we would have been asked too but I’m glad we weren’t. On the news tonight they showed the story of a couple who lost their 3 year old son and how his grave had been robbed. The first time was father’s day and just recently he had his Christmas tree and angel ornament stolen. It was quite a long story because they showed a few interviews with other people at the cemetery and with the police. I know I have spoken about this before in my other blog. Some of Alex’s things have been stolen in the past too. It’s absolutely appalling that someone would stoop so low to steal from a dead child. Its sad that the world has come to this. I was also extremely upset at the time because it was only a few months after Alex had died. To think that some thief had walked on my son’s grave and taken the things I had left for him without wondering about whether it would hurt his grieving parents is probably one of the lowest acts a person can commit. I completely understand how that couple feels and am happy they called the police over it. Maybe the thieves will be watching and will see how such a pathetic act can affect a grieving family but then they probably weren’t born with a conscience.
We did a little shopping today and have pretty much finished buying all our Christmas gifts. It wasn’t so bad this year because we decided we wouldn’t buy for the grown-ups so that has taken some of the pressure off. We decided we would start a new tradition today and when we were in Target we picked up a star from the Christmas tree. On it is the sex and age of a child who we could buy a Christmas present for and leave under the tree at Target. We found a 2 year old male and bought him a toy truck with mega blocks. I thought it would be good idea to pick a child the same age that Alex would have been and each year we could buy a toy for a child of his age so next year we will be buying for a 3 year old. I hope our gift can put a smile on the face of a child who wouldn’t otherwise be receiving anything this Christmas.
I went to our local child care centre a couple of days ago to enquire about placement for Dylan for next year. I have all the enrolment forms but they are sitting on my desk untouched and to be honest I’m scared to look at them. I feel like I’ll be deserting Dylan and leaving him with strangers but I know I have to put him in child care and return to work or we will struggle financially. I feel so guilty. Maybe I will look at them later. Then again…Maybe not…..
