I am officially on 12 months ‘unpaid’ maternity leave which finishes in March but Ive been fortunate to be paid all my accumulated annual and long service leave at a reduced rate of pay so financially it hasnt really hit us. This runs out at the end of December so I know it will be a struggle unless I go back to work.
My boss phoned me yesterday to ask me what my intentions were for returning to work. I told him that I did want to return to work but am not sure when. We agreed I could work part-time doing 3 days a week and job sharing with someone else. I really dont know how I’m going to leave Dylan for even those 3 days. First of all I am still breastfeeding so that in itself presents a problem because although I have tried to bottle feed Dylan doesnt seem to drink much from a bottle. Secondly I’m just going to miss him so damn much. I dont know if I should return to work at all but the money is good and I think it will be hard to find something part-time that pays as much but is the money worth it when I am going to miss out on so much of Dylan growing up? Ive loved being at home with him even if it does send me a bit loopy sometimes. I am really dreading going back and know Im just going to hate it. Its almost an hour drive to get to work so thats also a big turn-off. Anyway I have decided that Im not going to think about it much more for now. I told my boss I would phone him before the end of the year to let him know when I would be back so I have at least another 4 weeks to think it through.
I am buying a couple of lotto tickets this weekend and hoping that I win so I dont have to worry about work anymore. Wish me luck!
